Today was difficult, to say the least.
I couldn’t concentrate at work.
I was weepy all day.
I couldn’t eat.
And then, after delaying going to his home to pick up my baby girl, I had to wait for his sister and her husband to get there so they could visit with Rachel, whom they hadn’t seen in quite some time.
Don’t get me wrong, I like his sister and his family. It was just hard being around him. I could barely look at him because I would get nauseous at the sight of him. Its hard being around someone when it finally sinks in that they are not your friend, and you care for this person so much.
I defended him.
I held him while he cried.
Yet when I needed him, he couldn’t be there for me. Correction, he WOULDN’T be there for me. He made the choice.